♥ Wednesday, May 09, 2007♥
Still in the moody mood.
Didn't sleep well again last night,
too pissed off i guess.
Been clearing SMSs from my handphone.
Inbox flooded with 900+ SMSs,
have deleted 300+ so far.
Nothing worth keeping.
Need to clear up my email accounts as well,
too much mail in it.
Better sort my school mail properly
so i can find my files easily.
Bestie said i've been damn suay,
which i feel so too.
Suay to the fucking max.
..pls get my mood back on track~
Tuesday, May o8, 20o7
Went to work in the morning,
mood still very bad.
Felt like going Mandai,
seems like a place i always feel some peace.
Went for class,
left halfway through. Just no mood for class thats all.
Wanted to talk,
scrolled down the contacts and the first person i scrolled to,
Shimin.
Don't know why sia,
but anyway decided not to call anyone after that.
Cat had to go to the hospital to visit a friend so we went seperate ways.
She asked whats wrong,
i said nothing.
She knew i was lying.
Funny how my frinds can always tell when i say nothing,
even when we were joking and laughing like mad in class.
My doctor has been telling me i must stop drinking.
Recently, another doctor told me to avoid alcohol.
But i needed it,
so fuck it.
Bought my 8 cans and went to the usual place.
Thought of going find baby but didn't want to be at a noisy place.
Than i text ed the stupid bestie,
he was with her, didn't want them to quarrel as well,
so i said its ok.
Than i thought,
its so difficult to meet up with everyone now that everyone's busy.
Just like what my friends always tell me too,
want ask me out so difficult, need take que number.
Well my stomach rejected my alcohol.
It was a really bad day.
Too many things,
don't wish to blog.
Cat wanted to come down,
but i told her not to.
Place too far off from where she is.
Or maybe i just wanted to be alone thats all.
Overall,
its been a disappointing time.
Its like you think you know me that well,
but the sad thing is you actually don't know me at all.
I don't wish to explain either,
think it in anyway you deem fit.
Its fine with me.
.you'll never understand.
fadiing away;
* gone @11:34 AM
Amanda
