♥ Saturday, December 16, 2006♥
Boring~ still early. Crystal asked to meet for drinks but think got to give it a miss. Its our 1 year anniversary tomorrow =)
Suddenly thought of Shimin, really missing this girl loads. How she would always manage to make me smile. Hate to accept the fact she gone for 2 years now. It ain't easy handling losing people close and people we love. Losing Lester 3 years back was my biggest blow in life, next came Shimin's a year later. Its difficult handling prople's departure but whatever it is, you still have true friends and and your family members, who will be there for you. Feeling down is unavoidable, i clubbed and drank like there was no tomorrow. Alcohol became my best friend, its was 7 days a week. Everyone needs time to get over stuff. When you're over it you'll feel better. Move on. But that doesn't mean you forget them. There will always be with you, there in your heart =)
Was chatting with buddy on msn few days back. So much has changed over the past 1 year. Friends worth keeping are still well kept and in contact. Those ain't worth keeping, i haven't even been bothered bout them. Maybe they try to say 'HI' in msn but well, i just go along and crap with them. But that does not mean i don't know how fake some people are. Somethings were said deliberitely to some people and there we go, we know who has been feeding information, one of which would be Chong. But so what? Doesn't matter. Its a fact this bitch reads this blog because he has told me that she said she read somethings from my blog and i have no intention of changing the blog add too. Does it matter if she's reading? What's there to hide?
Some girls are such sad cases. How can they sleep around with guys of the same group? Brothers sharing their girls or what? Funny. Imagine your gf has been with like maybe 2 other of your brothers before? Why do they move around the group?
Who are those I can trust, obviously those whom had gone thru alot of stuff with me, many years back. Those who were just clubbing friends, they will just be clubbing friends. Some people love bitching bout other people but i don't care. Go ahead and bitch its fine with me.
About wanting to know the truth and all, after so much, concluded some time back that all that ain't that important at all. If you people think i'm so not over it, god damn it, you're so fucking wrong. Things between me and him, no one knows best but us. We don't need others to judge us. Who needs the past when we have the present? Its history but maybe some people just cant get over the facts they weren't the chosen one.
Anyway to Shaun:
Its not easy for 2 stubborn people to be together.
You decide for yourself what you want.
Its simple, make or break.
Yes she may piss you off but knowing you, your temper ain't that good also.
If its like what you say she's changed for you than try work things out.
Its alot about give and take. Since you've chosen this, why not make the best of it?
Not like alot of us approve of it, a whole lot of us are against it, but still, what matters is how you feel bout it.
If its you happiness, go for it. We'll be behind you =)
But still, i want tell you, your lost has not been worth your gain. Haha. But no worries, the brotherhood and sisterhood thingy bout u and them, things will work out somehow.
*looking forward for Monday~
fadiing away;
* gone @5:52 PM
Amanda
