♥ Saturday, October 07, 2006♥
Just got back from school, damn tired. No food when i got up and rushed down for the quiz. Had assignment discussion after that. No time for lunch or whatever and no dinner now so..ya haven't eaten the whole day. No appetite anyway.
Worrying bout him coz he's not feeling well, worrying if he has food to eat and how he's feeling but in the end what i got was 'wun die la'. So much for being concern. Life has been really shitty and its worse now that they've put Dandy to sleep. Now there isn't even her to pour out all thats in me. October is a fucked up month. I really hate it.
Sometimes I don't see any need to be updating the blog. Nothing new to update. Just the usual..quarrels. I think from the time we got together till now, at least 60% of the time we're quarrelling. Can't help but wonder..maybe we really shouldn't be together, maybe we just weren't meant to be. He's a diffeent him now, everything's not the same anymore but why is he still with me? Cause it's been a habit to him already? Cause he's used to it or what? I fucking hate to think of all these. Anyway to make me stop thinking? maybe the only way is when my heart stops beating. I kinda look forward to that day actually.
So many years, been thru enough of shit and unhappiness. I really hate the thought that i still have many years more to go. But if things change for the better, than maybe i wouldn't mind another few years.
Work, school, assignments, tests, parents, friends, him, everything..i just can't handle them all. I don't know how to handle it too. No one understands, i don't too.
" time to get out of my made believe fairytale`
o7.10.06
Bought liang cha for him before i went to class. Met after class. He's not feeling well. haix..*heartpain* i hope he gets well soon. Went Lavender eat than to Geylang to buy his cigs. Down to East coast End again to slack. Found a lantern, wanted to play with it so went to the 24h Cold storage to look for candles but couldn't find. In the end, went to Mustafa to walk again. Slacked at the playground for awhile, snapped some pics than went home. Made him go to bed quick cause want him to rest. Can tell he was feeling quite xing ku when we were out -sigh
Some pictures taken:
+ o6.10.06 @ playground - baobei's not feeling well~
^ .our.legs.keke.
+ US~i love him.
* Somehow the happy times don't always last +
fadiing away;
* gone @7:52 PM
Amanda
