♥ Tuesday, September 19, 2006♥
Skipped class again. Shit~ I'm not suppose to. Haix. Was all ready for class actually, with my text and notes, out of house and all, but wth, just not in the right mood. Left the house, 7-11 drinking, stoning, driving, anywhere but class.
Another argument. Damn sianx. Maybe I shouldn't let what he says bother me so much. I mean like everytime we start quarrelling, the things he says, haix..Its damn hurting, u can't help but get upset. No use telling him too coz already did many times, just not bothered coz still, he says them everytime we quarrel.
So I'm not being understanding and I don't care? Do I wear contact lens or do I need eyedrops? No I don't need. But why do I carry eyedrops around with me? For me? I don;t think so. I'm not the one who has dry and irritated eyes due to wearing contacts. Whatever, really don't know what to say.
*speechless
Sometimes I wonder, does he even think before he says something? I really don't know. Like everything thing I do for him, to him, it was actually nothing. This I found out..Yesterday. What a "NICE" thing to know. Not appreciated? So be it than.
Yesterday's just another bad day, knowing and realizing so many things, was a lil too much to take actually. Did he mean what he said or like what he said, he just said it out of anger but when he thought back, he realizes and sees the things I do for him? I don't know. This has been going on for so long. When will they just stop.. *sigh` When will the happy days come again. Honeymoon period over? Ya I'm so sure its over now coz we quarrel more than ever. Just hoping things get better`
.. let fate decide what things should be or turn out ba. tired..really tired."
fadiing away;
* gone @12:27 PM
Amanda
