♥ Friday, September 01, 2006♥
" everything is so fake, including u "
...so now i'm fake? of well, ya i am, i do admit that. I fake a smile when i'm not happy at all, i fake it that i'm so fine when i'm not at all. Its so tiring pretending you're fine when you're not, but know what? You'll never understand that so whatever~
Always telling me you're sorry after all the stupid stuff you said without thinking, do you think i feel more angry or more hurt with all that stuff? And though i just keep quiet bout it, doesn't mean u should just go on n on bout it. You have a temper and so do i, but when i'm at fault, i know how to keep that temper of mine away and keep my bloody mouth shut! Keep the vulgarities for yourself coz I DON"T NEED THEM!!!
We never get anything solved everytime something arises, we both agree we do love each other too much, maybe just in a wrong way. But there is where we stop and we didn't solve anything, the problem still exist and i'll just keep coming. I dunno how to talk to you, coz nothing will go in, even before we can really talk, you'll start to get angry already so no point continuing the discussion.
Yes things may seem ok now, but things don't feel the same to me. Everything's kinda cold. There's a gap in between, something, i dunno what. Its true we don't really understand each other, but not that i didn't try to do so, you're not letting me do so. Its alot about compromising, give and take kind of thing..but..i dunno~ Let's just see how things go.
+ .no.expectations.no.disappointment.no.disappointment.no.sadness. +
fadiing away;
* gone @12:47 PM
Amanda
