♥ Thursday, August 31, 2006♥
* lost for words.
Yesterday was a super fucked up day, and it is still a fucked up day presently.
What's it suppose to be? 2 people who loved too much that they get paranoid over the smallest things? 2 very hot tempered people together? Past few weeks were really bad, and when things seemed to be getting a little better, shit happens again.
What's that brain of yours thinking? What the hell you thinking? That i'm cheating on you and that i don't really love you? wtf..yes, WTF!! I only remenber the bad things? If that was the case i would have fucking left long time ago..would i have to wait till now and take more nonsense? How bout you? Do you remember the little things i do for you or have you forgotten and only remembered the bad things too?
We did went thru alot of shit being together and still stayed together, wasn't it suppose to make what we have stronger? Why does everything still seem so frail. It takes just a very small thing for you to wanna give up and just walk away. Is that what you're gonna do everytime shit happens? I really wonder where we're heading. Maybe somethings weren't meant to be, maybe it was a mistake right from the start, maybe we shouldn't have met, maybe~
This is getting too tiring. Quarrels and arguements time after time, puffy eyes the next day due to the fucking tears that wont stop flowing even as you sleep, bloody brain that won't stop thinking even for 1 fucking second. But you know what? FUCK IT! coz it doesn't bother you. I don't understand you? Who don't understand who? I have to think how you'll feel, who's gonna think bout how i feel? Do you even hear me? I highly doubt it.
Seriously i duno what to say la..thoughts are just too messy, too many things inside yet there's nothing that can come out too.
I miss Shimin, very badly~
... take me to where you are, you're where the rainbow is ...
fadiing away;
* gone @1:08 PM
Amanda
