♥ Saturday, July 22, 2006♥
Why did i have to see.
Just why..haix.
I wonder if i'm the only one reacting like that or would any normal gal react the same way, or even guys in any case.
Again you explained.
Again you apologized.
Again you asked me not to be angry.
But somehow, its no longer bout getting angry.
Its bout the disappointment.
The sadness.
The feeling of being cheated, again.
I did something that was just quite not me.
I made him do something.
He did it, not quite unwillingly i guess.
He seemed disturbed, kinda sad, it just showed in his eyes.
Or am i being sensitive, again.
White lies or not..they're all the same cause they're still LIES.
I'd rather get sad and hurt by the truth than get sad over discovering nothing but lies and more lies. So what else am i still kept in the dark? Its been months..but it seems like just seconds ago that i just knew you, like someone i do not know, someone who's become kinda distant and stranger like..all because of the lies..
Whatever it it
Ya its over again, and i certainly won't hope for another.
Feels so heavy in me, i dunno how much more i can take.
I feel a breakdown approaching, but i hope its won't.
Yesterday just wasn't my day. Finding out so many things at a time..
fadiing away;
* gone @2:43 AM
Amanda
