♥ Wednesday, June 28, 2006♥
Crystal's so damn right..She wrote in her blog:
I once lived in a city. It was a strong, safe city. It had high walls around it built in earlier times to fend off frequent attackers.I maintained them in order to keep myself safe from hurtful things. I can't say I felt safe in my strong city but it was as close as I could get.
But I was alone in my city. it had become a prison for me. The same walls which I had built to keep out pain had also kept out good things. The things that make life worth living. I was besieged in a prison of my own making. Yet I continued maintenance on my walls. I chose the safety of a prison rather than face the dangers that lay on the outside.
Its ironic how we choose to actually stay in our comfort zone, a place where we have built over time, but than step out of it when we thought it would be fine or even better. But when the walls we build around us suddenly start coming down, again we're back to square one.
I don't know what I expected to see when I reached. But what a sinking feeling I had when I stood before the city and found it surrounded by high walls probably as strong and solid as mine had been. I could not get in.
Much as we try, sometimes it ain't that easy getting in. The walls you build around you stop people from getting close to you, from understanding you, loving you and to really know you.
I just have to face that the world is not 'my world'.
Sometimes i feel..is it you that i don't know or is it just me that i don't know. Or maybe i never really knew you..
I guess its me that i don't know anymore coz i've become a stranger to myself.
fadiing away;
* gone @8:42 PM
Amanda
